Promise me that we will meet in Gulangyu after a certain time.
But what can I do to love you ?
What a pity that I can’t do anthing to love you
When in the midnight it’s definitely belong to yourself alone
All of the people disappear but there’s only me who tell my problems with the computer in front of me.
I have even told my friend: I am afraid of daytime.
Because daytime, let me feel so hopeless and also extreamly grieve for no reason.
But the dark room, the familiar atmosphere, definitely can help me to transfer the grieve into characters.
Some of the people would used to telling people about his problem then he forget;
Some people would used to crying;
Some people would used to writing
Some people just need someone to keep him company;
Some people just can’t get out of it
For me, I am the one who can’t get out of it. If I get over it, can I fully forget all of the past ?
I wanna get over it by talking, but the more I talk, the harder I can’t get over it
I wanna get over it by crying, but why is the tears still coming out of my eyes
I wanna get over it by writing, but the more I write, the more I can discover from the memories
I wanna get over it by other people, but figure out that you took my heart away….
….
Where’s the happiness we talked about ?
In this cruel and reality society, I need to go back and ask myself:
What can I do to love you ?
The fancy promises pile up and 999 reasons of loving you ?
Romance, handsome, cool, ability, am I better than writter, author,actor, singers ?
I am such a null even can’t stand on my own.
Maybe I can tell myself of “ if you have aim and power to move on,then there’s nothing impossible “ to comfort myself
I can be your alarm clock daily
I can be your industrious cook daily
I can be the one who appear in front of you on time after work
I can be by your side at anywhere you want
I can be your happy nuts in the daytime
I can be your safty port in the dark
I can be your cool fan in summer
I can be your heater in winter
But but……
I know what to do to love you but what else can I do to love you?
Where it has …….then will have grives
The wind we blows together of the whole city,the mountain we climb together of the whole city,the park we hang out together of the whole city, the steps we walked together of the whole city
Basically there are fill with your smiling face and also your happiness form
Do you know why I love taking your pictures ? Because when I am alone, I would look into every picures I had and imagine how happy you were at that time then fall asleep peacefully and silently
Falling in love with you for two years, Gulangyu,you and I have never been there….
Gulangyu becomes the last stop in us.
Why not take a chance to hang around the Gulangyu?
Why does everything stop without having that beautiful and sweet moment
Is it because of you ? Gulangyu , is that you who stop in us from having the coninuously relationshiop with her
When love comes next time, if I still remember how sorrow I was,
If I still can get over it again ?
Promise me that we will meet after a certain time, But what can I do to love you?
Without house, car, money. What should I do to love you ?
I don’t have a rich family background, I don’t have a broaden social relatinoship, what should I do to love you ?
I don’t have high diploma certificate, what should I do to love you ?
I don’t have a out-standing job,I don’t know when is the new start even I forgot to eat,sleep , what should I do to love you ?
So what should I do to love you ? As I have no answer then just stop at Gulangyu.
PS:When the tears come down from my face. I realized, being apart is the other meaning of understanding. Cry because you are not mine, smile because I see you, tears fall down while keep smiling just because I can’t have you in my life.
Its all because I used to have you by my side, so I don’t know how to put you down
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